Coming back

Bonjour, how 'ya been? Life around me hasn't changed much, but it soon will. Soon the moment of truth will come, the moment where all my optimism, organizational skills (not too many of those), discipline (a little short there too) and general help will boil down to a fusion between my new mommy role and what I was doing before that. As in, college. I hope to succesfully syncretize being a wife. And do it well.

Part of me is really excited, I really enjoy learning and love the field I've chosen (International Relationships). Another part is slightly apprehensive about the implications of leaving my babe to go to school for however short this period of time may be. I'm not afraid of leaving her: she's in excellent hands and completely safe with people that love her, but of it in itself. I don't know if I got myself across but I can't explain myself further. All I can say is that I've got the feeling that when you've got kids you never stop thinking or worrying about them, they're always at the back of your mind. However, I'm probably just making a big fuss because I'm not used to it yet. I'm really very thankful of being able to continue my studies.

I also have peace in my heart. I've had my ups and downs and I've been around so I'm not as green as I appear at first sight. I've taken good and bad decisions that have helped forge my character and I truly feel that I'm on the right path. Now all I have to do is walk so to speak.