viernes, 31 de diciembre de 2010

New Years' wishes

New Years Eve. That's today.

Tomorrow most people will begin some sort of list that'll supposedly guide their actions during the next year. Stuff like losing weight, getting better grades if you're still in school, a better job if you work, or simply a job. Other common wishes are finding your true love, getting married, traveling and much more specific wishes like maybe getting in touch with your parents you haven't seen in years. Etc, etc.

The average blog you'll come across today and for a while will be motivational and inspiring. The good ones might actually instigate you to change, give you that push you need to get started on your own personal new year's list. They won't tell you anything new, but at least they'll get you on a good path.

This is where what I write won't tell you anything you don't know either, just a little more point blank. Understand that you likely won't see that list through. At best you'll start it but I'm almost positive that you won't finish more than half of it.

Humans are very similar amongst ourselves. And perseverance isn't precisely an accurate description of us. Lazy is. So is comfortable. Mediocre is as well. That is the average you. I'd like to offend you as to move you to prove me wrong. But really I don't like offending people so I will just say that it'd be excellent and against the grain if you got at least 60% of your wish list accomplished.

With this concludes my own version of a motivational speech. Perhaps I should've had another approach on the subject, been a bit more optimistic. Well, I haven't but I sincerely hope you do make a wish list and try to get it done. It's how you can grow you know. As a person.

On the other hand...

Happy New Year! May all your dreams come true!

With love,

Nancy B.

martes, 28 de diciembre de 2010

Christmas days

On the first day of Christmas guess what I caught a cold
I wasn't able to leave my room.

On the second day of Christmas the turkey looked so good
but I couldn't smell it at all.

On the third day of Christmas I started to feel well
I'm thankful for reheated food.

On the fourth day of Christmas now I can finally breathe
attack re-reheated turkey once more.

On the fifth day of Christmas I am completely cured
may kiss my baby once again. (without fear of getting her sick)

On the sixth day of Christmas helped make some lasagna
try and guess why it tasted different. (man that turkey was big!)

On the...

Ok I'm sorry. I don't really remember how many Christmas days there were so I'll leave that as is. It's, believe it or not, based on a real story. Hahahaha anyway after a few weeks of bravery I finally crumbled under the sickness that had caused so many of my comrades in arms to fall. (chiefly my husband and his parents and brothers).

We slept over at my Mariditos parents house and had a very festive, very delicious Christmas dinner. (yes, the turkey was excellent as you might've guessed). On Christmas day we visited my maiden home and ate a carrot cake I baked and (I was so happy), it tasted good! It was done all thorough and soft and it got finished really quickly, much to my credit. Next time I'll remember to make the frosting as well, I kinda forgot to this time.

I just love our family meetings!

miércoles, 22 de diciembre de 2010

Knitting and reading

Wanna know what I've been doing these past days (besides house chores)? Knitting. Usually I study japanese or practise my french in my free time but I want to give my Maridito a handmade scarf.

I learned to when I was like nine and recently put it into practice. Turn's out I haven't forgotten how to knit, but I didn't realize how much time you had to put into it. Thus, I'm dedicating it most of my spare time. I'm not sure I'll be able to finish it in time for Xmas but if not I'll figure something out. Turn it into a base for a letter or something. (I know that sounds implausible but just imagine it as a normal sheet of paper and instead of ink textile paint).

Since leisure time is scarce for me I can only indulge myself with reading while I simultaneously feed my Belle Fille. (Just in case you haven't caught on from earlier posts or this is your first time reading my entries, I'm referring to my daughter that's a few months old). I've had a yearning for Jane Austen and since I recently finished "Pride and Prejudice", I started reading "Mansfield Park". I haven't gotten all that ahead in the story, but I can safely say that I'm enjoying myself. I like the cadence that is so caracteristic in Austen's novels, how things flow softly but surely, like a stream that ends in a quiet beautiful lake.

That's actually a good description of the state I'm in when reading these sort of books: sitting down on a soft blanket with my back to a nice birch tree that gives a small, light shade as to prevent the glare from the sun overhead while allowing my feet to bask in the warm sunlight. A clear, calm lake in view with a duck or two and grass all around. Yep. That's me reading Jane Austen.

I have also benefited vocabulary speaking, from these books. Where else can you find odd, fun but still proper words but in olden english literature? Where else can you find a word such as whim or the expression "fancy that"? I'm afraid my writting style has been a bit influenced as to make me sound a little off now and then. However, it fits me pretty well since I'm also a little off sometimes, being true to myself even when writting. This last statement, by the way, has great writting potential in itself and I will pursue it in the near future.

I don't know if I'll write before Christmas, especially with the knitting needed to be done. Anyway...

Merry Christmas!

Happy New Year!

Bye now ;)

sábado, 18 de diciembre de 2010

My Belle Fille (my daughter)

Babies. More specifically my baby. My beautiful, wonderful baby girl. She has the ability to make me smile and forget if I'm upset or tired, even when it's 4 am. She makes me feel warm inside. Joyful. I just love how this new love fills me. It's a bubbling, silent kind of happiness that seems to be in permanent crescendo and is unlike anything I've ever known.

Belle Fille has begun to show us a little of her personality, but not much. Not just yet. Perhaps her being barely three months old accounts for that but to me it seems as if I've known her for a longer period of time. Her being inside me accounts for that as well but come on cut me some slack I've never been a mother before. I have the right to ramble a little.

My little girl is impatient if I don't feed her fast enough. She enjoys watching futbol with her father. She gripes if her diaper is dirty. She gets angry when a loud noise wakes her up. She gurgles and coos when I sing to her and she feels like it. If not, she'll just stare at me and I like that too.

She is sweet. She is cool.

My Belle Fille. My (well, her dad's also) daughter.

domingo, 5 de diciembre de 2010

What Nancy B. wants

Hi again. I know I´ve got some nerve to try and continue this blog after I forsook it for so long. But then again I talked about that in my last entry so I will say no more on the subject but please read it (hehe).

Things have radically changed for me and will change even more since next semester I´m going to continue with my college education. That means I´ve got to get organized if I want have a successful household and be a successful university student/small baby mom/wife.

I love spending time with my baby and Maridito but I also want a degree from the major I love. Furthermore, I can´t rule out the fact that the house needs to me kept (you know, swept, mopped etc.) the laundry washed... you know what I´m talking about. So I better get organized and pronto if I want to get this done and done well.

I know what you´re thinking: "It´s not such a big deal, get over it" but let me give you some context. I am not yet twenty years old. I got married less than a year ago. My baby is only a few months old.

This is totally, completely, thoroughly new to me but there are many kind and wise people around me who have been of tremendous help so I can´t but be grateful. You´d be suprised to know that you can get excellent advice if you´ve got the sence to listen.

Following it is harder.

I´ve often admired the individuals who had a full time job and went to university at the same time. I´ve been in awe of those who besides that had a family. There are many such people, but few who are integrally accomplished in what they do and no wonder. You can work your but off trying to earn money so you can buy your family what they want and need only to find that they´re practically strangers to you because you didn´t spend any time with them. Maybe you barely earn enough to maintain them and live in constant strain. It is a heady task indeed.

This is my desire: To love and be loved by my husband, being his ideal helper and not an absent wife. To be my Belle Fille´s best friend, her playmate, her loving mother. To hold a degree under my arm (while I´m at it, why not a masters as well?) and still be considered a good daughter, a good friend.

Rayos! I´ve got quite a challenge, haven´t I? I know this will take me a life to do plus an innumerable amount of tears and sweat. But you can bet I´ll try each and every day. And you know what? I´ll even manage to have some fun along the way. Just watch me ;)

PD: Wanna know what am I thinking, even saying aloud with force?

Lord please help me!

Attempt to vindicate myself

My, it's been a while hasn't it? I know I wasn't really missed, but it definetely doesn't speak well of my character. That knowledge however won't really keep me from writing so that's what I'll do. The only bad excuse I can give is that my baby is now born.

That's right, my baby ya nació!

My Belle Fille is incredible! She smiles and says gu-gu and holds my (or anyone else´s) thumb in her hand! My hipothesis about her personality that was based on her behavior whilst in my tummy was right: She is such a sweetie! She hardly ever cries, she´s very good with people (everyone loves her on sight!), very strong and very healthy. She is such a blessing!

Life is now completely different from anything I´d known before. I never really imagined how it would be like to be a mom or even married, but I´m sure that if I had I couldn´t have come up with something as perfect as what I now have. For real.

Obviously my baby is a normal baby (as in she poops in her diapers and wakes me up in the middle of the night to feed her and exercises her lungs reeeally well when she´s sleepy and tired) but she is so amazing. She really is. My world practically revolves around her.

I know I´m gushing a little but frankly, I don´t care. My baby rocks!!!

Thank you God!

jueves, 26 de agosto de 2010

Do I really belong to this generation?

Hmmm... I've finally got access to internet in a while and I have nooo idea what to do. I sometimes feel so not a part of this generation.

See, I missed the part in middle school where kids start to get hooked on messenger and stuff because they want to stay in touch with their friends. I sincerely tried to join in, but not having a computer at home, much less internet did not help at all. So I tried to substitute it with the phone.

Result: I got grounded because the bill was way high. The situation would see itself repeated on several ocasions and thus, I ended up permanentely grounded. For real. In fact, by the time I was ungrounded, the phone no longer appealed to me. This lacking plus still no internet and living far away from my school caused me to be ill used to staying in touch. My friends know this for a fact.

Even now when I do own a laptop I just find it tiresome to get on the boat.

miércoles, 18 de agosto de 2010

Please respect the penguin!

Ok, the funny walking is now completely undeniable. Furthermore, I also walk a bit slow, so much in fact that crossing the street has given me material to talk about.

See, the other day my maridito and me were crossing the street at a mall, and there was this costly (and very nice I must admit) van, something like a BMW, coming straight at us. It was far away and we had already crossed half the street, but the van suddenly accelerated as if wanting to stop us in the middle just to let him pass. And when he got to us he stopped and honked impatiently, as if! Did the person in the van seriously expect me to walk faster? My feet were a swollen, I was tired and anyway we had already near the other side when the van appeared. Please!

I might resemble a penguin, but this penguin has the right to cross the street in peace! Come to think about it, you caused your mother to walk like a penguin as well so calm down and try and gain some respect for the local penguins Mr. I own a costly van so everyone else has to make way for me, ok?



viernes, 13 de agosto de 2010

Sleeping in the laurels

I am now supposed to be eight months in my pregnancy. Yet the babys' birth seems so far away. Don't get me wrong my tummy is by far my main feature and I do walk slowly and a bit funny (If I get careless I resemble a duck) but where are the feared contractions or anything that reminds me that in aproximately a month the baby in my tummy will be born. A real human being that will need caring for: food, diapers, sleep etc. Couldn't something make it more real for me, some sort of wake up call?

I know that I should start to prepare for the baby, but she hasn't given me any kind of urgency call. My pregnancy has been a pretty sweet one compared to others; I've been blessed in that matter too. I've talked of my babes' personality before, she's strong but not troublesome. So in this manner, since she isn't constantly reminding me she's quite near coming out so my husband and I must be especially careful as to not "dormirnos en los laureles" like thay say in spanish or get careless just because the babe doesn't mount a big show.

In the next few days we're going to buy all the stuff a baby requires like diapers and her crib and so on and so forth. I'm reading this book called Parenting: From Surviving to Thriving by Charles R. Swindoll (excellent, I hope I'm not getting too ahead of myself and neglecting the things I should be doing like prepping for the baby.

I soooooo want a natural baby birth. I slightly (very slightly) cringe at the thought of a possible c-section. Oh and those stretch marks that suddenly sneak up on you...

PD: Just catching up a bit, my very much loved maridito and I are now completely established at our new home. Yay!!!

miércoles, 28 de julio de 2010

Oops it's been a while

Hi there! Sorry for not being constant in my blogging it's just that I've been a bit more tired (my pregnancy hasn't allowed me that much sleep lately) and a tad busier. For example, my refrigerator finally arrived today! It makes my kitchen look so official, just like having cups and plates in the cupboard! It might sound weird, but the other day I started to store them in my kitchen and you just can't imagine how much I enjoyed it! It is so nice to decide what goes where and change it if I want to just because I feel like it. I would compare it to some sort of confirmation for me. Of this really being My House, My Home.

Something else that if it hasn't completely hindered me it definitely has not encouraged me to write is that there doesn't seem to be much going on right now. I feel as if I'm on standby: No university (though I must admit that I'd be on summer vacation right now anyway), my belle baby isn't born yet and I haven't even acquired full responsability as a wife in the manners of cooking or washing for my husband so I can't describe to you an anecdote in that matter either.

Oh, I'll have plenty and more to write about in the near future, but at present time I shall tell you the first thing I learned as a wife.

Lesson 1#: No matter how comfortable you are in the morning, if you and your husband have plans, don't wait to get up until he does. He'll get up scarce minutes before deadline, shower, change and be ready in less that 15 minutes expecting you to do the same. Result: you both got up at the same time, but it's Your fault that you're both late.

I happen to have learned this on our first sunday as a married couple. We were supposed to go to the first church service which is at 9 o 'clock at our church, and ended up going to the second one which is at 11 o' clock. I felt so frustrated... Needless to say, now (on sundays) by the time my maridito (husband) is getting into the shower, I've finished my toillete and am already in the kitchen getting some sort of breakfast going.

Wanna try and guess lesson number two?

ALWAYS have food available.

miércoles, 7 de julio de 2010

Simply stunning

You know what I really feel like talking about? My beautiful baby. I have no idea what she looks like yet, nevertheless she's beautiful, I just know it. She's normally calm but last night she appeared to be bent on conquering new parts of my stomach, her home for now. She ended up right on my side, exactly where I support myself when I'm lying down, kicking most of the time. She made me roll over to my other side but suprise! She had somehow accommodated herself in such a way that she seemed to be on the x axis, thereby being able to reach both my sides. And how she kicked!

I suppose she wanted me to move to another position where she wouldn't kick against the bed and have more liberty to do so, but what was I suppose to do? Sleep face down? I don't think so. Also, from past experiences I've the impression that she doesn't like my lying down on my back (starts kicking more energetically, plus the doctor told me it's not too comfortable for her) so tell, what position would be appropiate?

When I first began to feel her moving inside of me it was the coolest thing. I don't really know how to describe it, as I suppose most mothers don't either. The closest I've ever gotten is comparing it to having some sort of bubbles inside of you, only thicker, and sometimes they explode near the surface. Nice huh? Anyway, as time began to pass and the baby to grow(in case you haven't noticed yet, it's a girl or at least that's what the doc said) she began to have this tendency to lean on my right side, next to my last rib. However, I suddenly began to experience some major kicking, totally unlike those before. So strong! I found out why thanks to this mom that told me the same thing had happend to her with her first child. See, babies with time choose a place in our tummies they particularly like and are prone to stay there for the whole pregnancy.

It can be anywhere, but when it's in the ribs as they take up more space they use the bone for support and in consecuence, their movements, specially the kicking can get really tough on the mother. Worse still if you didn't get the baby out of there when he or she was still small, because when they're bigger it can get really uncomfortable for them too.

So that was why my baby had abruptly decided to become a soccer player! I've been able to persuade her to move out of there to where she has more space, but at first she didn't want to be persuaded! She would dig in and simply refuse to move, even kick back at me! My usually placid baby had a mind of her own... and I just loved it! She demonstrated to be strong willed indeed, but reasonable as well, as she finally let herself be coaxed from her spot. She's still strongly inclined to that area, but I suppose that since she's bigger now and doesn't fit in that well, she deviates to my side. Alas that's why she was so persistent last night.

Oh well, it's all part of the package of being a mom, or a future mom at least. The bright spot of being uncomfortable is that I feel like I'm interacting with her. Kind of apache since our comunication consists of my pushing and her kicking back, but it's lovely still. Like I'm discovering her personality.

Simply stunning.

PD: That's me being pregnant, only that from a few months ago. I'm a lot bigger now.

lunes, 5 de julio de 2010

A slight introduction

Hi again, I'm happy you continued reading, I'm apparently not that experienced with starting in a normal, friendly way. I will now try and amend it by telling you a bit about myself:

As I had mentioned before my name is Nancy B. though since I'm married I'll happily tell you my oficial name which would de Nancy B. de B. I'm 19, live in Mexico (I'm a proud mexican as well) and will be expecting a beautiful baby soon. I'm also a university student and my major will be International Relationships.
I'm cristian and just trying to do my best to grow as integrally and fully as I can. You and I may not be diferent in the latter aspect i suppose.

I've been called nice before, but I've also been called sarcastic. Weird as well, "in a good way though", it seems funny to me. I don't really know but I don't really give it that much importance, I'm very much comfortable with myself and it doesn't matter anyway.

I guess this is good enough for the time being, see you around.


Nancy B.

Off to a good start

Hi there. My name is Nancy B. and if you're reading this blog in sinc with my writing it, then we probably know each other. I'll be writing about things I do in my life and a bit more, things that interest me and'll interest you unless all is lost. Or I get too far fetched. Anyway I hope you enjoy it because I most certainly will.


Nancy B.
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